When my spontaneous healing occurred, I was doing energy work on my nearly-frozen shoulder. I’d been having terrible nerve pain for months, and it was very painful to lift. I was laying in bed with my opposite hand on the shoulder, sending hot heat energy there and watching what came up. What I suddenly saw was an extremely detailed and grotesque “mind movie.”
The story that played out in my mind was of a man in the late 1800’s in England; it had the look of a well produced Hollywood horror film. I should say that I have NEVER liked scary movies – I’ve walked out of rooms and turned off the volume during ads for them, so this was odd and unwelcome, but I felt compelled to watch and let this story play out.
The story was sad – heartbreaking, in fact – as this man was a perpetrator of terrible things because he was blackmailed. The visions were extremely realistic, yet I felt somehow apart from them.
I watched very detailed scenes that would normally turn my stomach, rather calmly. There was a strange peace around me. As I asked what my shoulder had to do with it, I was shown what he had done with that dominant arm – different from my dominant arm.
I omit unnecessary details here, as his life didn’t end well, and he didn’t die in peace. What’s important was the takeaway.
As I came to, I asked myself: was he me in another life? Did I do these terrible things? It was my frozen shoulder that I was healing after all. The answers came: Possibly. Probably. What I felt buzzing in my body, though, was compassion.
We never think we’re capable of doing awful things, so we judge those that do. What became clear to me was that I was healing my rage at those who perform atrocities, because over the coming weeks, I had a clear sense that I was also a victim of those same atrocities.
More visions, short and supple would run through my mind, as I acknowledged that just like millions and millions of people in our world, I was preyed upon in terrible way.
Having seen this initial movie clip first, I was able to see how many of those involved were sad and troubled souls, subjected to their own traumas and brainwashed to think there was no other way.
While you should never approach or try to deal with those involved, you can absolutely develop compassion for their situation (they think God hates them!) and heal the trauma in your own self as a result.
My shoulder healed quickly thereafter.
Layers and layers become available
It took me another several months to embody the healing, as more magic began popping up in my life.
Years-old dissociative patterns during intimacy suddenly came to the forefront, and I was able to speak about them with my partner. Before, it was like I had this energetic collar, where speaking about sex was completely inaccessible to me. This healed very quickly, and my love-life completely changed
While I knew that this particular “issue” was something I would have to deal with “eventually”, I’d lived with this unspoken trauma-induced block for many years. As the big picture stuff was healed and washed away, I suddenly had the capacity to effortlessly deal with the situations caused by the trauma.
This is the gift of healing these traumas.
Healing what we don’t know is there
If you know you have something buried but don’t seem to have access to any memories from this life, you can start with a powerful internal wish to heal. This desire begins the process, as you tell your higher self that you willing to remove it from your energy field.
This allows the gates top open and for solutions to begin showing up.
What would it take for me to heal ____?”
You can fill in the blank with whatever you feel and don’t like. Words like: Anxiety, Stress, Fear, Discomfort with Sex,etc. Maybe in your quest, you stumbled upon this site, and it’s speaking your language. That’s a good sign that you can receive the tools you seek here.
Trust what comes up. Your Soul loves you, as you are part of God (Universe, Source, etc.), and your learning here is paramount.
There is not one abandoned soul in the world.
Not one. (If they feel abandoned, it is because they have a program running that tells them this, but this is not the case.) Even the worst people, who have done the worst things, have access to God, to Light, to forgiveness (by others and by Self). So no matter what you think you may have done, no matter what you were subjected to, your healing is possible and accessible to you.
When I do group clearings and we move boulders, participants tell me that they instantly feel lighter, that situations that need light, forgiveness and love begin to arise naturally. Once they come up, you can run Light through your body and ask for the situation to be healed.